Thursday, 17 January 2013

"Collared"

I am struggling with an issue relating to my submission at the moment and plan to post about that, but not right now.  At the moment I am trying to formulate my thoughts.

For now, I want to tell you about last night.

In this post, I mentioned that we had purchased a pendant together.  A 'collar' if you will.  This pendant is a representation of us and our love and also a symbol of Rick's dominance.  That I am his and a reminder of that fact when we are apart.

We planned to set some 'us' time aside to focus on us, our relationship, enjoy each other and during this time he would put the pendant around my neck, effectively 'collaring' me.  I had thought this would happen last weekend but circumstances didn't in the end permit this to happen.  Also, I wasn't quite in the right head space for it ... a-hem ... as evidenced by my previous post.  Righto, lets move on shall we?  Yes? Good.

We ended up having our little 'collaring ceremony' last night.  I was a little nervous because I was pretty sure this would include a role affirmation spanking.  I hadn't been spanked for quite a while ... because I'm such an angel (shush, don't remind me of my previous post!).

Rick told me to go to the bedroom, get undressed and wait for him.  I rather hesitantly went because I hate being naked.  He does this because it makes me feel so much more submissive and vulnerable.

He came in and held me and told me we would indeed, start off with some affirmation.  He then proceeded to tell me how much I mean to him, how important my submission and his dominance is to us and how proud he is of my efforts and that this was to reinforce our roles.  When the time came I didn't want to go over the bed, I clung onto him instead.  Partly because I wanted to delay the inevitable but mostly because I needed to feel his embrace and needed his reassurance at that point.  He held me for a while soothed me, reassured me everything would be alright then guided me across the end of the bed and half lay down with me for a while rubbing my back.

Then the spanking began.  It wasn't overly hard although it was definitely stingy.  He talked to me throughout about how it is his job to lead and mine to follow, how I am his etc.  Then he stopped and rubbed my back again for a while after which he told me he was going to administer a spanking to clear the air and give us a clean slate to go forward with.  A kind of cleansing I suppose.  I reached my hand out at this point to find his.  I needed the reassurance and physical contact.  He held my hand while he spanked.  It wasn't easy to get through and it didn't take long until a trickle of tears came.  He stopped before that trickle became a river and lay down beside me for a while, still holding my hand.  Overall, the entire spanking didn't actually last that long.

I then sat on his lap while he proceeding to explain again the purpose of the pendant and told me again that the plain side represents him, the 'pretty' side represents me and the Sapphire heart represents our two hearts coming together.

He reassured me of his love for me and told me how proud he is that I am his.  He spoke to me for quite a while before finally putting the pendant around my neck.  His words were the most beautiful and  eloquent words I have ever heard.  I was speechless for a while, wondering what I had done to deserve such a wonderful, loving caring man who has such a deep love for me.  It never ceases to amaze me that I have someone who loves and cares about me so deeply ... but that kind of talk tends to get me in trouble so moving right along.

At some point I moved from his lap to my knees on the floor in front of him with my head in his lap. When he finished talking he finally said "I think It's time" and with little further ado, placed the pendant around my neck.  It is to be worn at all times and not taken off without the permission of my husband, except for when I go to bed and when I have a shower.

After our little 'ceremony' we had a lovely dinner together, shared a bottle of wine and relaxed talking and listening to soft romantic music.  We then headed to bed for a different kind of connection :)

It was a wonderful, romantic, emotionally charged night and a night of real connection.  Today I wear the pendant or 'collar' with great pride and I know I will continue to do so in the days ahead.  There is also something yummy knowing it is visible to the outside world but only we know what it truly represents.

Below is a picture of the pendant now in it's 'rightful place'.


As a side note, my husband was mucking around with the camera after taking this picture took a picture of his hand ... yes, the spanking hand.  The photo kind of looked as though the hand was in mid action so he said I should post it and say it was taken by 'butt cam'.  Did I tell you he can be a very funny guy?

54 comments:

  1. Congrats...that was really lovely. I believe it is important to have some concrete..something we can feel...when we start to feel lost.'
    hugs abby

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    1. Hi Abby, Welcome! Thank you so much for reading and for your lovely comment. I love having the pendant as a reminder of him and my submission to him. Especially when we are apart.

      Hugs
      Roz

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  2. Oh! Roz what a great collaring ceremony. Rick seems very loving toward you. I love that you guys made a whole evening/night of it. It looks great on you. And I agree it would feel a bit naughty to have it out there for the whole world to see. Congratulations!

    Hugs

    P

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    1. Thank you so much P for your lovely comment.

      It was a wonderful night and he was so loving. I do love wearing it out and only us knowing it's true meaning. Something delicious about it :)

      Hugs
      Roz

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  3. So beautiful Roz! It is like the 'happy ending' of a romantic film or book! I'll bet you're floating on air. I'm so happy for you that things are going well.

    Hugs, Ami

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    1. Awe, thank you so much Ami. I guess it is like the happy ending of a romantic film. it certainly feels that way :) It was so wonderful and I am wearing it with pride.

      Hugs
      Roz

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  4. A beautiful ceremony right from the heart.
    You must really feel connected.
    With a ceremony like that, I can hardly imagine that those issues with submission, that you mentioned, cannot be solved in no time.

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    1. Thank you so much for your lovely comment Bas. It really was a wonderful night and this has enhanced our feeling of connection.

      As for my concerns right now ... I think it's going to take time and more growth from me to get to where I want to be.

      Hugs
      Roz

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  5. Roz, this was such a nice post! I imagine it was quite emotional, but also a great feeling and so meaningful. I bet it will feel nice to have it around your neck, knowing his "presence" is there constantly. The pendant looks really pretty on you.

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    1. Hi Riley, thank you so much for your lovely comment.

      It was quite an emotional and wonderful night. It does feel lovely to be wearing it now and feeling his presence, especially when we are apart.

      Hugs
      Roz

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  6. Congrats! It's a beautiful piece of jewelry and a lovely post :)

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    1. Thank you so much Elle :)

      Hugs
      Roz

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  7. Yours is the first collaring story that I've read that I've really enjoyed like this. I felt love all the way through. Thank you for sharing such a personal story with us! The pendant does look great on you. I loved that you had a nice dinner and other connection later. Really, it sounds beautiful. (And, I enjoyed the humor part at the end!) Hugs.

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    1. Hi SNP, thank you so much for your lovely comment. It was a wonderful night. Rick wanted the whole night to be special and it was. He was so loving and ... ok, I'll stop gushing now LoL.

      Yes well, butt cam. I couldn't help but crack up but part of me waned to cross my arms and hrmph LoL

      Hugs
      Roz

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  8. hurray. congratulations! It's nice isn't it?

    when i'm feeling lonely i still run my fingers over the pendant i wear and it kinda helps me feel better. The bottom dolphin is me, and the bigger one over that is him, looking after and protecting me.

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    1. Hi Fondles, thank you for you lovely comment. It feels lovely, I love having it here to remind me of him, especially during times apart.

      I absolutely love the sound of the dolphin pendant. Beautiful sentiment and meaning behind it.

      Hugs
      Roz

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  9. What a lovely story of Roz....I have never heard the term collaring, but Ian and I are looking for something that speaks to us, a piece of jewellery to serve that purpose. The one you and Rick chose is beautiful and very meaningful to both of you - the ones that Ian likes for us are the celtic knot, but nothing has spoken to us yet.
    Beautiful post, Rozzie,
    hugs
    lillie

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    1. Thank you so much Lillie for your lovely comment. It really does feel wonderful having it around my neck as a reminder of him and there is something about having it on plain view to the world but only us knowing it's true purpose.

      I love the celtic knot idea. I hope you find something soon, you'll love it :)

      Hugs
      Roz

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  10. Beautiful sentimental ceremony. Your "collar" is beautiful and it looks wonderful in place.

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    1. Thank you so much for your lovely comment Sunny.

      Everyone has left such beautiful comments and it makes it feel even more special. Rick said it's like our blog friends are our guests - well to the after ceremony party LoL

      Hugs
      Roz

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  11. What a beautiful, outward symbol of the commitment you share. This story is such affirmation that our submission isn't just about obedience, roles and spankings. It's about a desire to love deeply and completely.
    I have no doubt you'll wear your "collar" with pride!
    All the best to you both!
    Catrinka

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    1. Hi Catrinka, Welcome! Thank you so much for reading and for your lovely comment. I agree with you entirely.

      It does feel so good wearing it knowing what it represents.

      Hugs
      Roz

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  12. The pendant is beautiful and the ceremony you described sounded lovely too. Everything came together for such a special evening for both of you...and now you will think of it every time you look in the mirror or feel your collar against your neck:)

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    1. Hi Tess, Thank you so much for your lovely comment. The whole evening was just wonderful and yes, I do think of it every time I touch or can feel the necklace or look in the mirror. I love having it as a reminder of him and his dominance, especially when we are apart.

      Hugs
      Roz

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  13. Such a lovely post, Roz, and I am sitting here with tears streaming. The affirmation of love from beginning to end...and beyond, reciprocity of giving the best of ourselves and having it gratefully and graciously accepted is the very,very best of this life we have chosen. Loving well and being well-loved is a most marvelous gift.

    (((hugs)))

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    1. June, thank you so much for your truly lovely words. You have me in tears too - happy tears.

      It is a marvelous gift and we work hard to truly embrace it and make time for each other and show our appreciation of each other. We are a work in progress and continually learning as we go.

      Hugs
      Roz

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  14. I love this post and thank you so much for sharing it with us. This is something that we have discussed. I hope if we do this that our ceremony is as special as yours. Simply beautiful.

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    1. Hi Zoe, thank you for your lovely comment. It was a wonderful night and I love now wearing it as a reminder of us and of him and his dominance.

      I hope you find that special piece that speaks to both of you if you decide to go ahead and that it is as wonderful a moment for you as it was for us.

      Hugs
      Roz

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  15. Hi Roz, such a wonderful ceremony for something so very special. Its a lovely pendant and looks good in its "rightful place" Its something we have talked about too, but I get a little feeling that for my Sir its more bdsm than DD he is thinking with a collar. Whereas I am more about what you and Rick are. More talking needed me thinks.
    This is lovely - thank you for sharing it with us. I think you wont be having any submission issues for a while :)
    hugs kiwi xxx

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    1. Hi Kiwi, thank you, it was a wonderful night and I love now wearing it as a reminder of us and of his dominance. It's a lovely feeling and I hope you talk to your Sir more about it.

      As for not having submission issues - it does actually help me to remember the rules and to choose to abide them if I'm wavering on doing something I shouldn't. Having said that though, I wasn't soo good last night. I didn't do some things that were expected of me and missed a text deadline - sigh

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      Roz

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  16. That sounds like it was a wonderful night. I'm so happy for you. Thank you for sharing such a wonderful experience. Butt cam sounds like something Bucko would come up with. Aren't we lucky to have married such funny guys.

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    1. Hi TL, Thank you for your lovely comment. It was a wonderful night and I love now wearing the pendant and being reminded of us and of his dominance.

      LoL, yes, the butt cam comment took me by surprise. I couldn't help myself from laughing and it still makes me laugh every time I think of it, but part of me wanted to pout and hrmph. Especially since I had just been spanked! LoL

      Maybe I should post the pic that sparked the comment, if he hasn't deleted it that is LoL

      Hugs
      Roz

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  17. A rich and wonderful evening. I am so very happy for both of you. The symbolism of your love, your submission and his dominance is a beautiful thing to read about this cold midwinter's day!

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    1. Hi Ward, thank you so much for your lovely comment. I feel honoured as I have a lot of respect and admiration for the way in which you embrace your role and lead our lovely June and boys.

      It was a wonderful evening that I will also treasure and I love now wearing the pendant as a reminder of us and of his dominance.

      Hugs
      Roz

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  18. Hi Roz - Beautiful ceremony, necklace and night. Thank you so much for sharing such a lovely and special moment with us.

    Blessings,
    Cat

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    1. Hi Cat, thank you so much. It really was a lovely and special evening for us that I will treasure the memory of. It's such a great feeling to now be wearing it.

      Hugs
      Roz

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  19. Aaawww, how sweet! And it looks pretty on you too. :) Congrats!

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    1. Hi Grace, thank you so much. I love wearing it :)

      Hugs
      Roz

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  20. Wow. Beautiful, thanks for sharing the story.

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    1. Hi Blue Bird, Thank you so much. It was a wonderful evening and I love the feeling of wearing it now.

      Hugs
      Roz

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  21. I love what your pendant represents, sweetie.

    Elisa xo

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    1. Hi Elisa, thank you so much.

      I love the feel of wearing it as a reminder of us and of our roles. When Rick told me what he saw in the pendant, our two hearts and the third heart bringing us together I just melted.

      Hugs
      Roz

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  22. This was a lovely post Roz. I'm so glad that you will have this special day to look back on and a special necklace around your neck as a loving reminder. Very sweet!

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    1. Hi Susie, Thank you so much. I will treasure the memory of that night and love wearing the pendant and what it represents. An external way of keeping us feeling connected and reinforcing our roles.

      Hugs
      Roz

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  23. Roz, how wonderful for you and your DD, something to remind you day that you are loved and cherished.

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    1. He Cathie, Welcome! Thank you so much for reading and for your lovely comment.

      It was a very lovely and special evening and as I said to Susie, a way to help us continue to feel connected and remind us of our roles. I love wearing it.

      Hugs
      Roz

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  24. Dear Roz
    What a beautiful confirmation of your love and respect for each other.
    I also got a heart from Daddy Jack this Christmas. I love the daily reminder that I have a man who loves and cares for me.
    I'd rather belong to a man who loves and disciplines me, than one who didn't care at all.
    We are very lucky and your heart charm is absolutely beautiful - as you are!!
    (((hugs)))
    Jack's Jill

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    1. Hi Jill, Thank you for your lovely comment and for the compliment :)

      It is such a wonderful feeling to have that reminder isn't it?

      Hugs
      Roz

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  25. What a very pretty pendant! Sometimes a reminder is nice.

    Sara

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    1. Hi Sara, Welcome! Thank you so much for taking the time to visit and comment.

      I love wearing the pendant and all that it represents for us.

      Hugs
      Roz

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  26. This was an amazingly beautiful post. Thank you so much for sharing! What a great gift, and a way to have a reminder with you at all times of how much he loves you, and wants what is best for you. :)

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    1. Hi Es May, Welcome! Thank you for reading and for your lovely comment.

      I love wearing the pendant. It is so lovely to have that reminder.

      Hugs
      Roz

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  27. I'm sorry I missed this post when it was first published, but glad I found it now. This is beautiful, Roz, and so is your collar. I love how special Rick made the whole thing. Congratulations. I know that when you reach for it around your neck your heart will feel only love and pride.

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    1. Hi Jacquie, thank you so much for your lovely comment. It was a very special night and I love wearing the pendant and being reminded of his love. It feels wonderful.

      Hugs
      Roz

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