I can't tell you how much your support meant to me and how truly grateful I am to all of you right now. I wish I could send you all a huge bunch of flowers to show my appreciation, but I suppose these will have to suffice.
As I predicted, I got up this morning feeling so much better in myself, with a new perspective and wondering what all the fuss was yesterday. It was all very raw and very real at the time. Any negative feelings or distance between us are just so much harder to bear now since ttwd.
The fact that I am feeling much better is largely thanks to you guys. As a commenter said, "I'm glad that God made days and nights so that we can start over" - Thank you Belle :)
It never ceases to amaze me just how quick blogland is. Within a very short time of publishing the post your wonderful comments started to arrive. I even read some of them in the middle of the night when I woke up during the night and saw from my phone on the bedside table that another comment had arrived. Shush, don't tell Rick that!
Rick and I talked on the phone last night and I know any lingering feelings from our episode yesterday have since faded for both of us. All is good in Roz and Rick land - sorry honey, I mean Rick and Roz land! Did you see the lovely comment he left me? (swoon!).
During our episode yesterday I thought of you guys while I was trying to figure out how to handle the situation. How to remain respectful to Rick etc. How would xyz handle this? We both apologised. Rick said he thought he had handled the situation badly and should have handled it differently and more immediately. I truly felt he had nothing to apologise for. I told him so then remembered the wise words from June about accepting an apology from the HoH with grace. How when he feels he is in the wrong, or in part responsible, he needs us to accept his apology and needs our forgiveness. Just as we need the same from him - thank you June :)
As for my 'blog wobble'; well, ya know how it goes; something goes wrong and you get down and then suddenly you feel down and useless about everything!
OMG, thinking about it now did I actually have a 'blog tantrum'?? - seriously Roz - grow up will ya!
Rick will tell you that I am the queen of tantrums (not something to be proud of - I know). Well, not so much now days. Since ttwd tantrums tend to be bad news for my backside!
They may not occur as often any more but they do from time to time. I also get extremely feisty and react to things. You know how it's the little dogs that make the biggest noise, have the biggest growl, biggest bark etc? - yeah well, I've already told you I am small - make that very small lol. Not that I'm really comparing myself to a dog or anything - sheesh!
Remember Scrappy from Scooby Doo?
Well, when I get feisty or have a tantrum Rick calls me Scrappy - "jeez you've really got your Scrappy on today!". Or he will simple recite Scrappy's catch phrase at me - "let me at em!" - oh brilliant Roz, that is sooo gonna be your new blog nick name!
Once again, thank you all so much for your kind words and support and advice when I needed it.