As the title suggests, this is a post of mixed ramblings. A snap shot of what has been happening in Rick and Rozzie land. Not a particularly exciting post so please feel free to skip it if you like :)
We are still on (supposedly) summer vacation. This week is meant to be our final week before returning to work next Monday. However, I now have to take next Monday off work to assist a family member. Also, the weather has been 'iffy' during the holiday so with that and me having to take a day next Monday we have decided to return to work tomorrow instead. Sadly, that also means I may not be as present in blog land as I would like as we settle back into regular routine. I hope you will forgive me.
We have enjoyed our time away from work and time together connecting and have had numerous daytime 'dates' going to favourite spots and cafes etc. I really don't want our time together and dates to come to an end, but I suppose one has to return to reality at some point.
As I mentioned, the weather hasn't been fully cooperative. It was been nice and warm but often cloudy with gale force winds which make it rather unpleasant to be outside and periods of rain. This coming week we are meant to see a return to rain ... hence the return to work. Given the awful freezing temperatures and conditions my Northern friends are currently experiencing I'm certainly not complaining ... not much anyway :)
DD wise, apart from the spanking start to the new year and lines I previously wrote about, DD has pretty much been in the background over the holiday. I suppose I should say that the physical aspects of DD have been more in the background. Rick has very much remained in control. We have been having fun and are feeling connected. I need to feel more of his dominance though in general terms. I crave it and thrive on it. Without it, I find it hard to maintain my submissiveness.
I always marvel at the ability of old habits to creep up on you and rear their ugly head. Last Friday was one of those occasions. The day started with having to hang around waiting for the plumber to turn up ... for the second time over the holiday's! It was also release day for the Boss's new album ... which, of course, we had pre-ordered! As you can imagine Rick was keen to get to the shop straight away to collect it. It's not that long now before we head off to the concerts!
That morning I had also rung the vet as I knew we were fast running out of medication for our cat which I have previously mentioned we are nursing through cancer. Rather than just collect more meds from the vet, we decided we should make an appointment and take her down to see him so that he could see how she was going etc as it had been a wee while since he had examined her. It turned out the only appointment I could get was later that afternoon.
For some reason whenever I have an appointment, or something I have to be at at a given time, I start focusing on it and stressing about making it on time ... regardless of how much time I have up my sleeve beforehand.
We went into the town to collect the new album and run a few errands etc and true to form, I started stressing about getting back home and getting organised for the vet (which was still hours away) and as a result the control monster and Scrappy both started to rear their head. I started snapping at Rick. Reminding him we had to get back home and get the cat to the vet and generally being short with him constantly uttering 'we haven't got time!" ... when in fact we had plenty.
Things got worse when we got home and tried to collect the cat. She was outside and Rick decided it was best to leave it to me to grab her worried that if both of us tried she would run off. So out I went why he played on his phone.
The cat ended up under a car and in frustration I came back inside to grab the treats to try and coax her out. Seeing Rick on his phone I snapped at him ... something along the lines of "you're not help" and stormed outside again. Rick followed me out and together we eventually got her inside whereupon she initially managed to escape while trying to put her in the cage resulting in me actually yelling at Rick about closing doors etc.
I don't know why old habits come creep back in and respect and submission seem to fly out the window when I am stressed. This is definitely a work in progress for me and something I so desperately wish I could better manage.
Afterwards I felt terrible for the way I had treated Rick and I still do. I am sorry honey. You certainly didn't deserve me yelling at you.
The vet was quite happy with how our baby is doing at the moment. She is holding her own well and the steroids have boosted her no end and also got her eating quite well and she has put on some weight. We discussed chemo, but his opinion is that in her case chemo is not a cure and would only (hopefully) help with the symptoms. He does not want to start her on it now but it is something we can look at a little further down the track if she deteriorates.
There was a funny moment during the consultation. The poor cat was so stressed that she just sat there on the table and was very compliant ... he he. I asked the vet if he could give her her medication for the day since we were there and all. Well, this floppy complaint cat upped and hissed at him straight away as soon as he had given her the pill.
So this is it ... holiday ends and return to work ... and it seems Mother Nature decided to end our holiday with a bang as this afternoon we were hit with a 6.3 magnitude earthquake. The epicentre was quite some distance away but it was felt strongly here. There have been numerous aftershocks but fortunately we haven't felt them. It has, however meant some disruption to services including public transport. Trains are out for now while tracks are checked etc and some areas are without power.
Just to finish I thought I would share a funny conversation we had the other day. We were sitting on a bench at a lookout admiring the view when bee started flying around my head. I had a terrible experience being attacked by a swarm of honey bees as a child and as a result have a phobia of the blasted things.
Oh what! Do I smell nice and pretty or something? Do they think I'm a flower or something because they always seem to hang around me
Mmm yes you do. Honey, if I was a bee I'd land on you
Umm, corny but sweet. Not sure how that would rate as a pick up line? LoL
Have a good week everyone :)