Still Here!

Hello friends! Did you miss me? I'm sorry I have been awol from here for so long.  I still haven't replaced the home computer and am therefore still using a tablet.  I've been using this to read and comment but it is difficult to write posts with.  Hence I have been MIA.

I feel I want to connect with my blogland friends, and to let you know I'm still here! Besides, I have so missed posting here.

There certainly has been a lot happening in blogland lately. Some friends are struggling right now with various issues.  My heart goes out to you and you are in my thoughts. There have also been some revelations that have shocked and affected many of us. I would rather not comment any further on that here.

Things for us have been fairly crazy. I had the week before last off work at Rick's insistence.  Believe me, he was not taking no for an answer! I had a cold which went to the chest and I ended up on antibiotics.  I actually enjoyed being at home and just cruising,  not doing much of anything.  Work has been crazy for me all year so the time out was welcome, even though it was due to illness. It also gave me the opportunity to get to spend some time with my cat. For those who don't know, we are nursing her through cancer.  It's been eight months now! Much longer than we thought we would have her and she is still generally holding her own quite well.

Last week I returned to work which,  of course was full on, especially after a week away! I'm feeling much better but still recovering.

It's winter here and although winter for us isn't a patch on our friends in the northern hemisphere,  I am ready for spring to arrive! Overall though,  I must say it hasn't been too bad.

On the ttwd front there hasn't been a lot since we decided to take a break.  Rick surprised me not too long after by saying he wanted to slowly make our way back and find what works for us. We discussed it, we both miss the extra connection and intimacy it brings us. We agreed we wanted to slowly reintroduce it.

Since then however,  there hasn't been much happening.  Rick said recently he does want to slowly get back to our roles,  but is unsure how to go about it. He is afraid of failing again and disappointing me (his words). I told him yes he may make mistakes,  so might I and it may not work, but that shouldn't be a reason not to try. As long as we keep communicating, we can work through it.

We have continued to 'play' from time to time. For some reason I have struggled more with the spankings and am wondering why this is.  Rick of course has noticed this too and has stopped spanking and made comments such as "such noise!". I have to say, he has modified the spanking somewhat given my struggle coping. They are not nearly as hard.

I said to him recently I wonder if my struggle could be because without the overall dynamic I don't feel in a general submissive mindset. While we may not be back on board fully with ttwd things are good and Rick is starting to assert his dominance more. Insisting I take time off to recover for example.

As I mentioned above, he is as dominant as ever in the bedroom :) We had a great night last night complete with nipple tweaking,  pinching, pulling, hair grabbing and, of course, some spanking ... which I struggled with again.  Sigh

It feels so good writing here after so long! It took me ages though on the tablet lol, so I will leave it here for now.  Hopefully it won't be so long between posts next time! Hope everyone is having a great weekend :)